Can we talk about self-trust for a minute?
For our honeymoon, my hubby (!) and I shipped off to St. Lucia for a week. He'd scored an amazing all-inclusive deal which included - you guessed it! - unlimited buffets and alcoholic drinks galore. Given that this was my first time visiting the Carribean, I was excited by the prospect of having complete freedom to try new foods without worrying about the cost.
It was an interesting experience, to say the least.
My first two days there, I definitely felt compelled to return to the hot foods station, pile on more food on my plate than I really needed, and make an extra visit to the desserts section. While I didn't stuff myself silly, it was a strange sensation to constantly feel like I had to "get my money's worth" at every single meal.
I finally sat down with Evan about this and explained to him what I was feeling. Like, if I don't eat ALL of this food right now, then we're wasting money. Right?
The true waste comes when I ignore my food voice and drown it out with ridiculous quantities of grease and sugar that I don't even truly want. Because not only do I feel sick, but I'm also unable to focus on the rest of the honeymoon experience.
What a revelation that was.
After that conversation, I was able to shed that get-my-money's-worth mentality and get back to prioritizing veggies and protein, consuming ample quality carbs, and putting my fork down when I felt no longer hungry.
The truth is, there will always be more food.
I fell in love with fried plantains during this trip, but I still practiced moderation. I could thoroughly enjoy a reasonable serving at one meal, and then if I really wanted it again, I knew I could order it at the next meal.
Simple as that.
I trusted that I would not implode if I didn't eat it all RIGHT NOW.
Trusted that I could always come back for more if I truly wanted to.
Trusted that I didn't have to fall victim to the buffet mentality to enjoy my time.
"You can have it all - just not all at once."